my blog probably feels very unloved

Hello unseen audience.

Hello blog. I'm sorry. It's been a while.

Lately I've been feeling a little slow. I'm not sure exactly what it is, but it feels like I've been a little bit behind lately. I feel like there's a million things that I want to do and I need to do but somehow I manage only to do what I need to and not doing such a great job at it, especially in school. Somehow I manage to finish an assignment or finish up studying for the midterm 30 minutes before the deadline and feeling disappointed how poorly I managed my time.

I'm trying to spend time to be alone and relax more in order than I don't feel so overwhelmed and burdened but it sometimes it feels like that too is a waste of time.

I'm not quite sure what to do but I feel very unmotivated. It just feels like what I'm learning is not relevant and not interesting and I just feel slothful and lazy. What is the cure for that? How can I be self disciplined in my academics? How can I be self disciplined in my walk with God? How can I be self disciplined in my personal growth and making time for the things I enjoy? I'm not sure. I guess for now it's taking things week by week and trying my best to get by.

bye bye until next time ^