Senior Seminar Testimony

This past weekend, I had a conference about what God has to say about post grad life! After the weekend, I shared a testimony about my experience and would like to share it with ya'll! So here it is:

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Hello! My name is Sheena and I would like to give glory to God.

For those of you wondering what senior seminar is, basically we have different topics relating to post-grad life. We study different passages that gives us more insight to how God sees it. Before going into it, I've heard that it's a very practical seminar. When I heard that it was practical, I was led to think that it would be easy and there wouldn't be any sassy Jesus and less of God. Oh boy, was I very wrong. There was really rich rich (shout out to our teacher, Rich) truths in the passages that we studied over this weekend, although I'll let ya'll go to senior sem to find out what they are.

But at this time, I'd like to share with you a little bit of how God worked in my life. In order to do that, let me give a little background. So I'm someone who is constantly worried about literally everything, and the future is no exception. In particular, I have been anxious and worried that I won't find a job. I'm worried because if I don't have a job, I won't be in control and that I'll be less than others. But worse of all, I fear that I will disappoint my parents, who have worked so hard to get me where I am today.
But the funny thing is, God responded to this anxiety not by reassurance, but by challenging me.

He challenged me in this:
that I was so fixated on that stable 9-5 civil engineering job instead of Him.
that my view on the dreams that God has for me is too small
that my view on how much God can work in my post grad life is too small.

Did I really trust God with my future?
He was saying to me: "You're only thinking of your own capability, not mine. Widen your perspective. What if not having a job leads you to trust in community like you never have before? What is what you lack in our relationship is .. a lack? Hold fast to the promises of my provision and walk in the freedom of that"

I don't think God assured me that He'd provide me a job
I don't think that God assured me that He'd provide me a cheap apartment
I don't think that God even assured that I'd have a community
But what God did assure me of is that there is rich and abundant life waiting for me in post grad. And in whatever circumstance that I am in, I know that when I strive for his kingdom, that the Lord is the one who provides. And by placing my weight on his promises, I can grow in my trust of him.
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bye bye until next time ^